chilling la~

Rain drops are falling on my head.

You know what i like most about rainy days? No matter how big a storm it is or whether it's just a little drizzle, somehow I just like to think that it's a cleansing process for nature. Rain, to me, is something very important. Whenever it rains, my thoughts just fly everywhere and I always have the urge to just run in the rain.

Well, finally I did it. It's a good thing that i didn't really have much to do just now. I waited for the storm to pass and then geared up with my long sleeves (it can be really cold after a storm u know) and just ran while it was still drizzling.

It was so cooling and there weren't many cars on the road, felt really peaceful. All i can hear is raindrops. I see puddles of water everywhere on the road, and within those puddles of water, i see water ripples as each drop of rain touches down on earth.

Then i reached the park where i usually go for basketball. The park is like a hideaway for me because it's full of trees n flowers n bushes. i continued running on the tracks paved there. I don't know why I like running, especially in the rain. I feel free when i run... and jump, that's why i took up bball as a sport, but for today, running will do, since it was too wet for bball.

I kept running and running, despite i was almost out of breath. I just didn't wanna stop, the cool breeze that swept over my face, wahh, best feeling in the world man. But alas I had to slow down for a while since i have been running non-stop from my house to the park and ran for 2 rounds straight in the park without stopping. Man, i really need to work on my stamina. I used to be so fit when i was in high school.

Yea, that was when everything wasn't so complicated. All i needed to do last time was to be myself and not worry about anything. That was when I didn't felt the pressure to perform, I enjoyed doing what i did best. Being happy.

Nowadays, everything seems so different from last time. I hate it when things change. Why does everything have to change? sigh..

Some people might think i'm emo-ing these few days. Well, i'm not. I just kinda think alot lately and i realized something. I remember how crazy and funny i was last time when I just entered college. The whole 1st year of college, i have really learned nothing much since I was to busy entertaining everyone and getting attention. It's not fair to my parents who pay my college fees. They expect me to learn things and be succesfull, and so do I. I'm not saying that i have wasted my time being the crazy 1 in class, I haven't tried my best in college, and I deserve a chance to perform. A chance to show my parents that I won't end up like my brother and a chance to prove to my friends that i'm not all happy and funny all the time. I try to be, but somehow I can't. Things have changed since 2nd year of college started. I don't know what but something has definitely changed.

I really hate myself for doing things that i'd regret later. My heart tells me not to do it but my brains just do whatever it pleases. The result? hurting myself and worse, other people. I just hope it's just another phase of life that i have to go through and it won't be permanent. I can't stand being silent all the time and being so "cool"... if u know what i mean.

Fuuuahhh, ok ok... i'll stop here now. I think it's a good thing to think about your life sometimes, right? hmm.. it's still drizzling. oooh ooooh, check this out.



Nice anot? hehe... nothing better to do just now. Took this picture after running. It's one of the many plants in my garden.

Okay, William Lee signing off now. Hope that everyone will try to bear with me if i don't seem to be that funny n crazy in college anymore. I need all of your support to build a better tommorrow for the world. So vote for me to .... blargh, what am i talking about? Sorry sory, must be the PB&J i had just now.... MMMmmmMMmmm... Pb&j...*drool drool*

CIZO MUH NIZOS!

posted by Wee Wee @ 4:42 PM